Well we are continuing forward. We have met a lot with the missionaries this week because of General Conference. Usually they show a delayed conference in both English and /Russian in two different rooms so it ends up with the missionaries in one room and the members in another. We got permission to show the missionaries it in English at our apt then on Saturday and Sunday we will sit with the members and listen to it in Russian. We are finding very few speak English. We were given a 48 hr. emergency kit at the mission home to keep in the apt. We are finding we need a similar kit of food that can feed 10 hungry missionaries on the spur of the moment. That's okay though because we can not do what they do with their language skills so if my job is to feed them so they can stay busy then that's great. I thought I would go on a mission and actually be a teacher but that is not the case. I realized Sunday how much I miss singing the songs of Zion in English. In relief society the closing song was Lead kindly light. The words are: lead kindly light amid the encircling gloom lead thou me on The night is dark and I am far from home. Lead thou me on! Well I lost it I cried and cried as they sang the rest of the song. I have never felt more far from home as I did in that moment. You have to remember it was Relief Society, so after the closing prayer the sister that was conducting raced to me and just hugged me and gave me relief. The gospel is true and God does want us to care for each other. I don't know why I am here I thought I would do something good for these members but maybe it is for them to serve me. I am finding for the first time in my life I am very needy and dependent on others. That is not easy for me. Love you all enjoy singing, memories the words they will give you peace.
I totally know what you mean about missing Hymns sung in English. I play the piano for Relief Society and lead the music in Sacrament meeting and I barely even know what song we are singing. I know our situations are different, but I just have to say that it will get better. In a month from now you'll look back and be amazed at how far you've come. And I'm certain that you will find so many ways to serve the people of Russia.
ReplyDeleteMom I truly understand what you are saying about the hymns. I had the same experience when I was serving my mission in Texas. I even believe that it was the same song. It is just that moment knowing that you are far away from home, family, and friends. But honestly the craziest thing will happen when in 19 months from now when you are sitting in your home ward and you will sing the same song, you will miss the people of Russia. I believe that it is just an answer to a simple prayer that shows you the Lord knows you and Loves you. It is an example that the spirit feels the same no matter where you are in the world. It is that spirit, even if it is not in Russian, that you have been called to share. You can help those around you feel that exact same spirit. Even if you can not speak Russian the spirit can and they can feel the Spirit you share with them. Even though you are far away you are never alone. We love you very much.
ReplyDeleteWe miss you guys so much. Thanks for spending time with us last night, or morning for you. It was fun. That song could not have been more touching for you. They words hit home I am sure. You are so great and we are proud of you. Love ya
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